August 2
From my brain
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2007
Me 08:05, 2 August 2007 (EDT)
I've gone from hating coming in here in the morning, to wondering what spot I get on the roulette wheel.
The events of yesterday are still hitting me pretty hard. I've been to weddings with those people. I've gone to the weddings of some of those people. They've come to my home, and I've gone to theirs. Knowing that there's more to come makes the weird empty/worried feeling only worse.
Wifey and I did manage to have a bit of a chat about stuff with us last night. As usual, I came out as a whiny little kid, and really didn't get out all of the stuff that's in my head. She had a couple really good points, and I completely understand them, I just wish I could get the rest of my stuff out.
There's always Saturday night when (again) the kids are at MILs and FILs.
2006
Me 20:56, 2 August 2006 (EDT)
Just got word from Wifey that the bandaid arriveth. For those that haven't noticed from my recent entries, money has been a bit of an issue. Okay, if I haven't mentioned it directly, the reason I've been primarily in a bad mood was because money was an issue. We're not broke altogether, but we're that relative who has a chronic disease that no doctor knows how to fix.
To fix it, we got a bandaid. I didn't want to do it. She didn't want to do it, but we had no choice (no, I'm not man-whoring again). We had to borrow a significant chunk o' money to fix the car, catch up on the van payment, catch up on mortgage, electric, and water. We have no credit cards, we just at some point got horribly and irrevocably behind in our finances to the point I'm not sure where to go.
I call this a bandaid because in truth, it will NOT fix anything long-term. It will get us caught up and let us keep things -- the car from falling apart, the repo man visiting, the water/electric from being shut off -- but we're still gonna be in a world of hurt probably again in about six months.
Day by day. Prayer by prayer. It's the only way you can wake up some mornings...
2004
Me 23:47, 02, August 2004 (EDT)
While walking the halls Tuesday, if you happen to see a load that seemed to have fallen off my shoulders, kindly have maintenance clean it up for me.
I walked into R's office (again) today, to "ask a quick question".
- Me: It's been on the mind of the guys on the team, and my own as well, so I'm gonna ask it: Are we training a manager?
- R: Huh?
- Me: A manager. The new hire that's a friend of yours.
- R: Dave? No. Uhh...no. First, Dave's not a friend of mine, he's like one of a hundred people who asked me for a job when ACME shut the plant down. Second, Dave's not the management type. He's a really great guy, and he's being hired because he's a rarity: He does the EXACT same stuff that you guys do.
To backtrack, I got word from TheEvilOne that there was going to be a New Hire to come into our team. I've a long standing belief people for our team come from within the company. I thought I had lost this battle completely, and then as I dwelled on it more, I thought, "What if this guy is being brought in as a manager!!!"
Well, R was very reassuring that Dave is going to be a Member of the team and not the overlord of it. This was partly the reason I decided to speak to R and not to TheEvilOne. He would have most likely gave me the EXACT same speach but I would have come off as a thinly veiled lie. R (again) doesn't seem like the usual exec.
And so, a mighty WOO HOO arose in the heart of Il Pervo this day. I am uber teh happy. :)
